THIRTY
I know what’s going on. I should know. But, I don’t want to know. I want to disappear into nothing and be gone without a trace. But, I am here working instead of being a teenager who makes mistakes and gossips. My childhood is gone and now I am a slave to Aunt Erika.
For me, when my momma asked me to stay in New York, I was so happy because I will be around E. I remember all the good times we had together during her last visit in Arizona. The time we had, was so amazing but now I’m lost without her. I’m nothing when she’s not around me. She will always be my best friend.
I would teach E about the native songs, dances and language and she would listen to all my issues with life. E was like my rock, and my hero. She was everything to me, but now our life will be on two different paths of life. I am starting the work the path of the cursed and she will be working the path of justice and righteousness. I’m damned to hellfire for life as E is in the good graces of God.
I wish, I didn’t carry this heavy load on my shoulder and in my heart. Aunt Erika told me, I was chosen to be cursed without any cure. This is my path and I accept it with dread and pain. I have to take ownership of my way in life and do something positive with it.
Right now, I know a secret in my heart and soul. It’s like a fire and I need to release it to the open. The secret can turn my family on itself in a second. The secret will hurt, kill and judge the state of my family. Why me? I wish, I never knew. But, Max need to die.
How can I kill Max without knowing how?
He is the key to the pain, confusion and hate in our family. He will cause the family harm and disgrace our name. He need to die before it’s too late.
So, as I laid in bed and say pray to Jehovah, my righteous God. I don’t know what to do? I don’t want Max dead, but the family needs his corpse to stay holy in our cursed bodies. I also pray to Dawa for extra help to find my way to kill my cousin.
Max is a cancer that needs to be cut out.
Shadow Creatures
