THIRTY – ONE
The party was a success but the family is hanging by a thin thread of fabric which was strong.
I know my family has problems, but the problems are no longer in the shadows. They are in the spotlight on the red carpet for the world to see.
Secrets whisper through out the house like a ghost walking on old wooden stairs. I hear them but can’t see the source.
I am in fear for my family and scared for myself. Scared to death. I believe, if we are not careful, we will eat ourselves.
This morning, I creep into my brother‘s room. I stare at him as he sleeps in the nude. He’s like a polar bear, loves the cold. I sit on his bed and touch his warm mature face.
He’s so innocent and pure. Not tainted. I wonder if he feels what I feel. I wonder if he sees what I see.
I lay next to him in my shadow of a form. I need to feel his body, his love and presence. I love him so much. I miss the days when we acted like Siamese twins and even wore the same clothes. We were best friends, now we are strangers who share the same DNA.
I hold him tight as he sleeps like the dead. I just want my brother back. Is it wrong to love your brother?
His smooth body, beautiful skin, black oiled hair and a personality like the Dali Lama, I love him. I need him. I need him to hold me and to tell me everything is “OK”.
I have so much pain in my heart, I want to rip my heart out and die. I want to die.
The only person I can trust is, the one I can’t touch.
I am so alone.
As I lay my head on Eric’s chest, my shadow left and my body appear.
Eric look at me with his glassy eyes. I look back at him with a smile.
He wraps himself with the flat sheet and made me crawl under the covers with him.
It was nice holding my brother in my arms again. I feel so alive.
“How long have been there?” Eric asks.
“I while,” I say.
“Oh. I have something to tell you. I look at you ever night. I stare at you when you sleep and I try to capture your breath. I know,” Eric says.
I look at him, the emotions inside of me are going hay wire and I don’t know what to say next. I love him with all my heart and soul. I need his presence just to keep me sane. I need him like a druggy needs drugs.
“E, I feel it too. Something is wrong. Max is not himself. He’s not family and Fire needs to leave. I feel your pain and your sorrow. It’s makes me cry every night. I feel your warmth and your hungry, and it makes me crave to save you for the depths of your hell. I want to save you and I don’t know how. I know, you are older than me, but I am your brother. Can you tell me what to do? How can I save you? To me, there is a cancer living inside your soul and I need to remove it, but don’t know how. Please tell me how to save you so I can save myself,” Eric says.
He holds my body like a weak vase ready to break. I don’t know what to say back, but he is right. Fire needs to leave and Max is not family. Max is a monster of the unknown kind, but I don’t know how I can explain it.
“Just hold me,” I say.
“Boyce knows something about Max. He told me, Max is different. As see you, he left without telling anyone. K thinks he’s being a dick like usual, but I don’t think so. I know Trinity and Tyler knows something. Do you think Fire will sell her soul to the likes on Trinity and Tyler? Fire is spying on the family. Mom made her do it. I heard mom over the phone talking to Nana. E, I am not fit to lead this family. I am so sorry the burden is on your,” Eric says.
I grab him tightly into my arms and hold him as if he was my favorite stuff doll. I need him more than ever.
In the back of my mind, I knew we were being watch by an unholy spirit, but I didn’t care.
Shadow Creatures
